Lost and Adrift
Welcome here! I am sorry to hear about your struggles. What they did to you is in stark contrast to what Jackson testified to at the Royal Commission in Australia. He said UNDER OATH that if someone fades and leaves and doesn't identify themselves as a JW anymore, than disfellowshipping would not happen. I just watched it last week.
I don't know if you care to take the situation further, but if you do, I would write a letter and reference the video clip where he says that.
In the meantime, you're in good hands here. I have found a lot of friendship and support.
Take care!